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| 11:45pm 18/07/2003 |
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[Yeah this journal is still dead, but I checked the email out of happen-chance this evening- I found the following:
That journal is pathetic. Don't you have better things to do than make believe ? You are not Matthew Lawrence, nor will you ever be. Its really sick. He isn't gay and you are posting all over in some bullSh*t make believe journal that he as well as Ashley Angel ( whos also not gay) are married?!? How dare you. You are sick and twisted and I will make sure both Matt and Ashley read this bullcrap!!!!!!! And whos baby picture did you steal for the announcment? You should be ashamed!! Hey, heres an idea... GET A LIFE
Normally, I don't justify shit like that with a response- but tonight-- ahh, well.. My response below-
Okay- normally I just ignore stuff like this- but considering I no longer play the game (the journal was abandoned well over 2 months ago) I feel the need to point a couple of things out to you.
No one asked you to read the journal.
You could have closed it, when you figured out it was part of a ROLE PLAYING GAME (which is clearly stated in the disclaimers)
But you continued to read it. Obviously, figuring out that "Matt" was married to "Ashley"
I adore both Matt and Ashley. Had either of them had the time to pay attention to this and have an issue with it (as of date, they have not) I would have deleted it. The fact that you, a pitiful teenybopper (judging by your email) with nothing better to do with your time than read the journal, has an issue with it- doesn't bother me at all.
For the record, I know Matt and Ashley are not gay- get an imagination.
It is an online GAME. There are many worse ways to be spending time online. I'm sure you can think of a few. Lighten up.
Sincerely-
The artist formerly known as "Matt Lawrence"
Wasn't that fun? Yes- now I'm leaving. And to think my goal was to delete the email address- but with interesting little things like this coming to me MONTHS after I abandon ship- it's just amusing!] |
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| a beautiful goodbye |
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| 08:16pm 06/04/2003 |
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mood:  peaceful
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I guess I've been keeping something from all of you for awhile...I haven't even told Tim or Alexei-- that's how deep of a secret it has been...well, I guess now is as good of a time as any-----. Ashley and I got married the day after Christmas.---
I know, it was extremely selfish of us to do that without sharing it with anyone and then keeping it quiet. He, well... We, really both thought that with all the goings on and babies being born and other couples being so fiery, it might be in our best interest to not say anything for awhile.
I've also made the decision to sell the house in El Segundo, it wasn't any easy choice to come to either. My life is with Ash, so I'm moving to Orlando (for the time being) to be closer. Where we go from there is anyone's guess.
After the crazy grandma next door died last month, and the Frat Boys down the road got busted for pot and ended up evicted the neighborhood lost some of its charm. Dani left for NYC, Tim and Alexei started spending more time on the road than ever before and Manda made the decision to sell her home...the neighborhood lost the last charms it had. I was holding onto a life that didn't want me anymore by staying in this house.
There are a few things I just have to say though...
Tim and Alexei-- you guys will always be my nearest, closest and best friends ever. You took me in when I needed it the most and I've never forgotten that. Alexei, I know you sometimes think that we aren't as close as we could have been, and I agree. But you're still very dear to me. You've been my pillar of strength when I needed it, and I hope, somehow I repaid the favor to you. I say spasiba to you Lyosha, for everything. And Tim, I have no idea where to start with you. You showed me how to love someone with all your heart, like the way you love Alexei. You've been my crying shoulder and my partner in streacking. I loved you the moment I saw you and it's only grown from there. To cheers to the adventures behind us and the thrills before us. No matter if I'm in El Segundo or on a little island in Taipai you both are always with me in mind body and spirit.
Dani, Manda, Sami, Janie, Adam, Lena, Ryan and Keri (of course Keri, how could I forget Keri.. you see? I'm mentioning her name a lot so she knows I'd never forget her.. KERI KERI KERI). I love you. No further words can possibly ever be said.
There are so many others, so many who touched my life, and Ash's life. I cannot even begin to mention you here. My heart is with you and you are in mine always.
With Aaron getting so big so quickly, with moving and with focusing on my marriage... this journal, as important as it has been to my life and lives around me (if only for a laugh) has to end. So now I leave you, much as I came in. Slightly off-topic, a little hyper, but always remembering that the power of love is there to change us all, for the better.
* STREAKS BY IN A FLASH ON HIS HOCKEY SKATES*
( My vows to Ashley... 12/26/2002 ) |
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| 11:11pm 10/03/2003 |
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and Im stalling from the inevitable so hush up
I am surrounded by hot people.. Tim, Alexei and Ash
Lena, Sami and Gina
how can i bare it
oh i can't.. excuse me now while i go kill a kitten
RAWR
EDIT I forgot about Gil.. the hottest papa of them all.. well.. maybe not of them all.. but he's up there with the other boys! |
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| 10:31pm 26/02/2003 |
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Dani's in NYC. She's been there since a week after Aaron was born. She's not giving me any indication of when she's thinking about coming home.
Ash is around when he has time...but its never for more than a few days at a time, then he's off doing stuff for O-Town. I'm happy for him to be pursuing his dream...but I miss him. I love him terribly much and I just want to lock him in the house so he can't keep leaving. Aaron falls asleep easier with Ash than with me. Ash has a better singing voice-- that could be the reason. Hehe.
Tim and Alexei are on tour. I think I might go spend a few days with them and introduce Nikolai and Anya to Aaron. 4 weeks isn't too young to start a play group...is it? Now, if you'll excuse me...I'm going to go change Aaron's diaper....again. |
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| *sigh* 2 things |
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| 10:50pm 24/01/2003 |
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Have you ever lost someone so close to you that it felt like a part of your soul was being ripped out as well?
If you did not hear, earlier this week, Nell Carter passed away. She was like a second mother to Joe and myself while we were on Gimme A Break. She always kept in touch and would come to our birthdays and every Easter we would trek to her home and help her hide chocolates for her grandchildren. She taught us about God and that he loves us all, no matter what color, shape or size you are. She took care of us when we got sick and would force us to do our homework on the set. She would whip us into shape when we pulled any flack on her and she dotted her love on us because we were her boys. She took special liking to Andy because she always said he had gotten the best qualities from me and Joe. She was our guardian angel on earth and I'll miss her. She's been sick for a long time, so in a way this is a relief, but still... Easter will never be the same. I love you Mem, and I know you're watching over me tonight and always.
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On the other end of the spectrum-- Dani is now 3 days overdue. The Doctor is recommending we induce labor. *nods* I'll let y'all know how that goes.
*sigh*
~matt |
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| 01:08am 04/01/2003 |
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sometimes when I can't sleep, I'll wake up and go to sit in the nursery. Its empty right now.
I just sit in the rocking chair looking at the stencils of lambs and lions I put on the walls a few months ago.
i'll stand up and walk along the perimeter of the room, running my fingers over the smooth plastic of the diaper table, the wood and brass of the crib and bassinet. feel the soft plush of the teddy bear Dani and I picked out for our child over Christmas.
There are only about 3 weeks left that I can do this. Then I'm going to be a dad.
9months after I first learned about it, and I still don't think I have quite comprehended that. Or maybe I have.
We have a quilt with his name stiched on it.
We have diapers, bottles and onesies stockpiled. (Pampers is climbing the stocks now because of me and my Costco card)
We have the baby monitor set up with extra batteries, just in case.
But right now, the room is quiet and dark. The toys on the shelves, neatly arranged. The diapers still packed tight and the clothes all neatly pressed, some still with tags.
Waiting patiently for my child.
~matthew |
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| some substance |
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| 01:49am 23/12/2002 |
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sometimes its nice to have someone in your corner.
no matter what.
they dont have to know the whole story, to take your side.
they give a hug when you need one
or a dose of reality when you space out
you may not talk everyday
or see each other very often
but knowing sometimes in your heart that they are there when it really counts....
or maybe a little bit after-the-fact
its great to have that person
its great to be that person for someone else.
For my friends whom I hardly see.
For my friends whom I see all the time.
I love you all dearly.
Happy Holidays guys... and may it be filled with love, laughter, family and friends (and maybe a little christmas nookie), this year and years to come.
~matthew
PS: Dani, I have a gift for you from Amanda... |
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| Well |
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| 12:31am 18/12/2002 |
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If you want to vote in this, log in. This is a case of CHRONIC freetime and being very bored. Dani and I have actually already picked the name, but we wanted to see what y'all thought... add the last name Raabe-Lawrence to the names to help you pick.... ( The Baby Name Poll ) |
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| bah humbug |
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| 11:56pm 17/12/2002 |
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This is the reprise of the post that got eaten a few days ago.... I'm in NYC until Wed night. Then back to LA... finally. I HATE promotion!!!... okay onward to what I was going to say.
I started off this year in high spirits for Christmas. But now, I don't know... I've become disgruntled with the long lines, cranky sales people and general "mob mentality" that ensues around the Christmas season. I guess it all started a few weeks ago when Dani and I had to pick a Christmas tree.
9AM-
This normally would not have been a problem, but seeing as our houses were burned down back in March, EVERYTHING went with 'em. So we had to start from scratch. We started the season off with the live/artifical tree debate. After a few hours of bickering lightly, we decided that a live tree would be better this year and we'll pick up an artificial when they go on sale after the holidays. So we head to the lot.
I like the blue spruce. Dani likes the Norwegian Fur. This proved to be a problem. There was no middle ground. There is no way around this. Except.. heading to your local wally-world and picking up a 8-foot artifical tree at peak cost of the season. Which, despite our good judgement is what we did. Stand in line at Wally-world for a good hour or so holding this damn tree in its awkward box. The handles break 15 minutes into the wait. End up half dragging the tree through the parking lot back to the car. Dani's car. Small car. Strapped tree to roof in its box and prayed for the best.
12PM
We return home with the tree and begin the ardious task of setting it up. I have this little quirk about everything being "just-so." This includes the branches of the tree. Dani set her side up and left the room. I then proceeded to spend the next hour fixing what she had done so it matched and the tree looked perfectly even and level. I even had to trim a few of the branches with wire-cutters to achieve that "anal-retentive" perfection I'm so noted for. Little did I know that our journey was ( Just Beginning ) |
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| 11:54pm 21/11/2002 |
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I miss Tim, Alexei, Nicolai and Ashley.
That is all. I want them all to update soon otherwise I am going to have withdrawals.
I love Amanda Marshall, in case she forgot.
That's all-I'm going back to studying now.
My only other question is if Affleck is back yet?
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| the matthew lawrence show |
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| 12:43am 08/11/2002 |
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this is the update that I've been meaning to do.
this is the update because I don't want to get kicked out of MBP.
this is the update that would seriously have more meaning if something was going on in my life.
I am so mundane and predictable. I hate that. Everday of mine is broken down into a strict routine. If I vary from it in the slightest, I end up having a crap day. I wake up at 4am every morning to go run before the smog settles in. When I return to the house at 530am, I have a cup of coffee and I read the morning edition of the LA times, either online or in the real paper, depending if my Iguana has chewed it up or not. At exactly 6am, I take a shower then return to the kitchen where I do the dishes from the night before that, of course, have to soak before being put in the dishwasher. I have my second cup of coffee and start brewing Dani's special decaff mocha she likes so she can have it when she gets up at 7am. By this time, I am dressed (in my typical kahki's and polo shirt, of course) and relaxing in the living room watching CNN and half re-reading whatever assignment is due in class that morning. I leave the house at 830 and attend class, eat lunch at the cafeteria- always ordering the same thing (tuna melt on rye with a side of bbq baked lays). After class in the afternoon I stop by my agent's office just to check the mail and see if I missed anything in the previous 24 hours. Pick up assorted fan-mail. 430pm I am on the road headed to my parents house to visit with them for awhile before heading back to my place. 7pm, I am home and Dani has usually fixed dinner, if not then she has already taken the liberty of ordering out or making reservations somewhere, she's just good like that. After dinner, I do my homework from class that morning (how geeky am I?), return any phone calls and usually by 9pm I am on the phone with Ash, whom I talk to for about 2 or 3 hours, depending which coast he's on and what he's in the middle of doing. I've actually had Mike hold the phone up during the concert so I could listen. This is my life people. I'm dull. Not that I really complain. I am in bed by 11, so I can get up at 4am and do it again. Now, obviously this changes when I'm not in school and when I actually have a job. During that time, erase all the classes and add in "filming" or "promos." Like I said, I'm very predictable.
Dani is too.
Maybe that's why we've been able to continue living with each other, even though we broke up almost 6 months ago.
Um, I think I originally had a point when I started typing this.... not that I remember it now.
My schedule is predictable...my train of thought is not. Go back to your friends list reading now, Matthew needs to get some sleep. |
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| 12:54am 29/10/2002 |
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but I'm not sure, this could change but Dani and I finally agreed on a name.
There was no bloodshed in the process.
It could change, so I don't want to say anything. Her due date is Jan 30. Have to live in suspense till then.
;)
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| Before I get in trouble |
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| 03:27pm 28/10/2002 |
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I have to explain-- I love getting comments. I thrive on it. But my computer has issues a lot when I try to post comments back... Like, I can post the first comment, but if you comment back to my comment I can't do anything usually- it gets all funky and freezes up. I love you all, and don't think because I'm not responding that I don't.. because I do. I just wish my computer would let me say it!!!!!!!!!!
[it happens sometimes with the OOC journal too, so I know its just my 'puter being stupid]
Gotta love technology!
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